Finding Comfort In Darkness

Finding Comfort In Darkness

For some of us, that which traditionally causes comfort leaves us feeling anxious rather than calmed.  YET, some kinds of darker experiences create feelings inside that are deeply comforting to those WHO simply cannot accept comfort in the more widely accepted traditional ways.  Oh, our brains have etched in processing grooves from a past which could be full of long stretches of emotional pain and discomfort, to the point WHERE those places of DARKNESS are WHAT feels like our baseline.  Call it Finding Comfort In Darkness💴💷💵

WHEN our life gets twisted and sometimes painful for long periods of time, your soul hurts and lingers in the past, leaving it feeling strangely compelling to stay hidden in the DARK places.  Some people cannot accept JOY and KINDNESS at all from others, because it CANNOT be accepted into their DARKENED soul.  It feels alien and jarring.  We do try and it's often a source of pain and distress for partners and friends WHO try to show the love and comfort BUT who fail to hit the right ways as our receptors are wired upside down compared to their own.  And while many of us with painful pasts can accept some level of joy and light into our lives, many of us also seek out the DARKER sides to the world around us📗📙📘

DARK films, DARK humor, DARK imagery, and DARK clothes feel familiar to be around and therefore comfortable to those WHO grew up in a wilderness of abuse OR neglect.  We seek out the DARK because it's the only thing that creates a space that feels safe around us.  The light carries NO intrinsic balm to our soul, BUT the DARKNESS feels like a warm cosy blanket wrapped around us☺☺☺

Goths and vampires, skulls and bones, lovecraft, they all pull us in, those that were forged in fire and ashes.  They speak to something twisted inside and create a sense that we are NOT alone in our FORTRESS of SOLITUDE.  When we finally find a passage out of the danger, a way to let go of our trauma, do we shy away from DARKNESS❓❓❓

The DARKNESS, the controlled fright, the playful ways we can take control of the DARK.  Illusion OR not, it feels like 'normal' to me.  ISN'T all magic made of shadows, light, reflects, and distractions?  Perhaps it's a kind of magic, this perverse translation of DARK to light.  Our takeaway?  Even if the DARK is our home, it could be a place where sorrow can be refined into hope, madness into genius, and trauma unleashed into memories.  This is all about FINDING COMFORT IN DARKNESS💚💛💜