Good Things DON'T Come To Those Who Wait

 

For quite a few times in the past, I was quite peeved with the world WHEN things were NOT happening in my favor, akin to witnessing one by dominoes are falling down.  BUT after having gone through profoundly with a combination of soul searching, attending life-changing events, shedding those massive masks, overcoming huge obstacles that looked like huge, massive big boulders, I made that firm decision to take back control of my life, even if that meant, changing horses at midstream because GOOD THINGS DON'T COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT💚💛💜

WHEN I was at the intersections of those 'forked' roads, I realized I was on a 'snowball effect' high on massive changes and those were the most intense feelings recurring over and over again as the changes in my life kept unfolding naturally and organically.  BUT if you ask me, HOW WAS THE RIDE during those times?  I'd humbly admit that it was a roller-coaster ride at best because after secure small, modest wins, I would hit rough patches BUT through sheer perseverance, I told myself, WHEN YOU'RE DOWN, THERE'S NO WAY TO GO BUT UP💥💥💥

After months and months of persevering and really stretching my patience as far as possible, I began to realize that the wheels of my life weren't moving all too smoothly anymore.  And at that point, I started to retreat, taking a half-step back, and then a full step back, even as I had 'huge goals' then, big dreams on the horizon WHICH I thought were 'low hanging fruits' [from an optimist's view]. At that point in time, the turnout of things really scared the crap out of me WHEN things WEREN'T progressing💧💧💧

Until I was aghast WHEN I seemed to have taken on a 'passenger mentality' in my life, making excuses for my inactions and myself.  And WHEN things really worsened, it was a huge blow to my self-esteem, and almost pushed me to give up and 'abandon ship'.  Deep within myself, I felt ashamed to be in a place in my life WHERE I hit those failures, after being so happy in my previous mini-milestone successes.  In short, I let that sense of failure to gradually 'eat away' at my spirit and I felt becoming defeated in the worst possible [and least expected] way.  I was like the favored boxer to win only to get floored and almost knocked-out and counted out by the referee😕😕😕

Our takeaway:  Through all those debacles, I was waiting and waiting for something to come and shake me, wake me up out of that 'funky state'.  I seemed waiting for life to knock on my door step and say "HERE'S YOUR EASY WAY OUT".  So, being that perennial optimist, I kept waiting for that on my door step, and waiting for things to stop being so difficult, for things to ease up on my plate, for things to miraculously get better because it felt like a lot was happening to me.  After rounds and rounds of self-reflection, I 'finally' took ownership of things and modestly, allow me to admit that I finally wiggled my way out of that deep morass and ending up standing on higher ground BUT before I end up falsely raising expectations it WASN'T that easy to snap out of it BUT I kept reminding myself to retake 'ownership and gather that gumption to have that power to reverse the trajectory that bogged me down for quite sometime,  YES dude, GOOD THINGS DON'T COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT'📗📙📘